As you can probably see, I haven’t written a post in a good long time. Little Windmill is my baby and has helped me evolve my writing style and develop my voice. It has given me the opportunity to meet many new friends and express my story. Community is a simple and powerful thing, and LW has helped me contribute to the conversation. So, why the absence? I’m glad you asked.
The truth is, my yoga practice has been more of a source of stress for me recently than the stress reliever it should be. I’ve been suffering from chronic back pain, pain in my hamstrings, and general soreness that doesn’t seem to go away.
For this I’ve tried numerous treatments- hot baths every day, essential oils, taken 10+ days of complete rest, acupressure points, myofascial massage, and most recently rolfing. It is extremely discouraging to me because my yoga practice is not only very close to my heart, but also my livelihood. There are poses I could once easily do that are a struggle for me now, and some that just seem impossibly out of reach.
I guess you could say I’ve been feeling pretty down in the dumps about my practice lately because of this, which has less-than-inspired me to write about it. I’ve been so frustrated with the physical aspect of yoga that the spiritual element has been lost to me. In addition to this, my meditation practice has suffered, and my motivation is poor.
A big truth is, I struggle with yoga! But I know that our minds are so strongly connected to our bodies, that our practice is constantly evolving, and this is part of the process. For me, that is a gift. Yoga practice never ends. We’re never finished. We don’t reach a goal and stop. We continue on. We see where our practice takes our body, mind and spirit.
So this is me setting intention for 2014. I am committing to sharing my truth, my Satya, my dharma with you.
Namaste and thank you for your continued support and understanding!